After all the talking that sometimes starts to become exhausting, he comes closer, body to body, his hands move from your shoulders down to your lower back and his hands against your body, it feels electric. They always feel like that, no matter what excuse he gives you, no matter how long it’s been since he’s bothered to communicate. It’s always the same old story. And the idiot always leaves evidence on social media yet his hands always feel electric, like he’s the only person to make your body come alive.
It was never like this, it was never complicated. It was always endless chats and all-nighters,, crazy stares into the phone screen and exposed blushing when we were together. We just clicked and it clicked. Mentally we had the same values about life, emotionally we were stable enough to feel the rush of one another, spiritually we understood it was bigger than us and physically enjoyed the physical attraction and its benefits.
BUT now I’m sitting here playing our favourite game. The crying game. Where everyone is telling me I’m the biggest fool for staying in this cycle. Contently hurt, crushed and destroyed by the same guy who makes me come alive, who used to wake me up with “good morning” texts and put me to bed with “goodnight”. Now all I do is re-read funny texts and stare at the phone waiting for it ring… What happened to our plans and promises that we wouldn’t hurt each other?
Sound familiar? If you haven’t experienced a part of it, you have heard the shortened, extended or exact same version of the typical hurt and pain that comes with relationships.
Question? If GOD is supposed to be the overseeing protector why doesn’t He protect us from each other’s toxicity, because let’s face it, we all can be toxic? We all have the ability to hurt and manipulate one another and at times we enjoy it. Why is the same damn movie being played with different people in different locations with either more intense scenes or unneeded understudies? But the Word says,
“And now these three remain faith, hope and love. But The greatest of these is love” (1 Corinthians 13:13-NIV)
Firstly, GOD can’t stop a toxic cycle unless He is asked, life is connected and in order to see where you are headed with regards to a relationship, you need to see where you have been. Now He does want you to have a beautiful and healthy relationship where you are both rooted in Him and He has a beautiful love story laid out for you. Like the story of Jacob and Rachel. Jacob worked 14 years for Rachel’s hand however in order to have those love stories written in your life you can’t keep looking at the same people who you know can’t fulfil that. You need boundaries. Set yourself apart. Focus on becoming a better you and that is with GOD.
Today there are all these cute little saying all over saying things like, “Allow GOD to control your love life;” “Don’t play around with someone’s future wife;”
or “Someone is praying for a wife like you” and it’s true. Ladies and gents pray for your husband and wives until he/she arrives. Pray that while you may be crazy and unresponsive, cokm 9mplicated and simple and layered with baggage, unreasonable and uncaring at times, he or she will love your amazing body, your loving heart and sexy mind. And while you pray for him or her, start to focus on yourself. Focus on who you are as an individual before who you are in a relationship.
“I am the vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.” (John 15:1-2-NIV)
You see GOD wants to prune you first. He wants to make you more fruitful in order for you to understand that before you need any other human, you solely depend on Him and His love and once that is achieved, I believe that is when He will send you the famous Mr/Mrs. However, you need to set boundaries. You need to remain in the vine.
“Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me” (John 15:4- NIV)
Don’t have a story like Solomon, he was given great insight and a breadth of understanding (1 King 4:29- NIV) however his weakness of women ruined him as he turned away from GOD to follow the gods of his wives and concubine.
It’s sad that the movie plays over and over again BUT don’t allow it to play in your life. It sucks to wait for anything especially if you know what you are waiting for is good but sometimes you have to wait and not be the one whose phone is buzzing, or giggling into a smartphone, or stays up all night because no one wants to hang up, or has electricity overcome their entire body because of one person and what two bodies can do when they are in synergy.
Remain in the vine. Be different and wait…because a GOD movie lasts forever.
